It's hard to summarize on this blog all the things that have happened in the past few months in my life. I made a third trip to beautiful Europe and enjoyed it thoroughly. I enjoyed it so well that I really didn't want to come home, and if it were a possibility to get a job and not just mooch off of my friend's mom for a place to live, it's possible that I would have stayed. Nevertheless I returned home as planned and have been discharging my responsibilities here and looking for a job. I was really hoping to get the job that I interviewed for in Denmark but was finally informed that the job had been offered to someone else. So in the meantime I am working on my dissertation, looking for another job, and trying to not let my life go stale just because plans didn't work out the way I thought they would.
The whole time I have felt faithful and confident that something good would come along at the right time. I was hoping that this job would lead me to Denmark, where I would meet a nice Danish man and begin the relationship/marriage phase of my life. Obviously that is not going to happen now just as I hoped... but I still have faith that I can be led to something good, if I am paying attention. I know that sometimes in life when I have gone through periods like this it has just been because I had to wait for the timing to be right, and then something really good happened. I feel that this might be one of those periods.
But it doesn't seem right to just put myself on deep freeze waiting for something good to happen. First of all, that is extremely boring and frustrating. Second, I can take advantage of the time to improve myself and get ready for whatever is coming in the future. I am particularly afraid that I might miss the subtle, quiet Divine promptings that are shepherding me in the right direction. I often pray lately that I will be able to pay attention to them.
In the meantime, I have a dissertation to work on and hopefully will be able to start teaching ESL in about a month. I'm even taking a crack at online dating, just as a way to get out of the routine, get out of the house, and meet people.
To see the hymn "Lead, Kindly Light" (the basis for this post's title), please click here. It's one of my favorites.
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That hymn is one of my favorites, too. Thanks for sharing your thoughts . . . and I'll watch for follow ups. Love you.
It seems were in a similar situation of life... awaiting the good that you know will come, while trying to keep busy and improve yourself in the here and now. Although the "next step" for us is different, the concept is the same and the desire to follow correct promptings is present. Thanks for sharing. I'm glad you got to experience Europe. How wonderful that must have been! I'm enjoying all that the East has to offer and finding joy in teaching private music/piano lessons to young children. Best wishes for the next few steps in your life!
great things will happen if you let go.
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